Once Abused.. Can’t just Look the other way..

Once again, another sleepless night. Seems to be happening more frequently again..

You see, the way I can understand it for me is when you’ve endured abuse and live through it and gotten out of it, like I have because I fought back and I chose a different path. At a very young age I made that decision that it wasn’t going to define me.. and I won that battle, but where I struggle is seeing it all around me.. Abuse, it takes on so many roles: emotional, verbal, sexual, financial, elder, power.. I’m that person who will speak up and speak out all the time, the disheartening and let’s say exhausting part is watching so many Just Look the other way as if it’s becoming the Normalcy in the world we live in today.

Have we become that nation that so many will take the time to record the abuse rather then step in and stop it.

How many times have I heard, “it’s none of our business” or “it’s not your place” when in Turn I’m saying “It’s not right” or “what if that was you, wouldn’t you want help?”

So for social acceptance am I just supposed to sit down now and except that this is the way it is? If only just one person could feel in my heart and see in my head what I feel and see, I wouldn’t feel so alone..

Somewhere out there someplace there is someone that gets what I’m saying. Someone that is going through what I’m going through. Someone, Someplace, Somewhere… I know I’m not alone in this battle.

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My thoughts this Morning..

I am laying here still in bed.. Waking up to a smart phone with a large screen is a occupational hazard as you can start your work day before your feet even hit the floor.. That’s how my morning started about 7am.

I send out a message to a beautiful young lady that I met through networking in another business. That business didn’t last for either of us but we have stayed connected like so many do via Facebook. Anyway, I responded to a question she had placed on my Facebook wall under my post about my new Jeunesse business. In our conversation I find out that her father, someone I know she was desperately close to had passed away. My heart hurt for her as I know how much pain she must be enduring.. Yet she is saying to me she needs to learn the ropes and make money from home as she has her two babies and her sisters baby that need to be cared for as her sister and brother in law work full time. Now I know all of these precious babies are all under the age of four years old. And the youngest is just a few months old so yes, she already has her hands full. But what I do know, is with this business it can be done. As I wrapped up our conversation I found myself thinking about some of the women who have recently joined my business.

Pure Strength..

My first business partner has cancer.. Yet she is the most positive women I know. And my biggest producer working her little tail off. All I have to say to the naysayers, women and men for that matter.. You think you have a reason you can’t succeed. This women will make you realize “It’s time you suck it up, Buttercup!”

My next beautiful lady that joined my business is in her upper 50’s and recently had to take custody of not one but four of her grand children.. Ages ranging from 3 to 11. Talk about starting over. Jeez, where does she find the energy? So for those Mom’s that think, I have kids I can’t do a home based business right now, message me.. I will put you in contact with her so she can talk to you about her day..

And then there is another.. Who when I met her as I was dropping off samples so she could launch her business so proudly told me she was in recovery. She used to be a addict. I wanted to at that very moment reach out and hug her but I thought she might think I was a freak. You see my sister in my early years was and still is today a addict. I would have given anything to hear those worlds come out of her mouth but I never did and I know now.. I never will.

So, in this business it is known that people “fish for the whales”. The ones that will bring their whole school of fishes over with them in one swift movement taking them to the top in zero to 60 seconds flat. But me:: I couldn’t be more proud to be working with these three women amongst all the other women and men that are on our team. Because I know with the heart and soul our team possess’ Anything is possible.

Why I Almost Walked Out of American Sniper

I myself.. Had to walk out.. I told my husband I was going to use the lady’s room.. I had to step out to catch my breath.. We are all, or at least most are guilty of putting the realty of what our soldiers are going through.. Their families are going through.. The sacrifices they are making.. we are tucking all of those realities into the back of our minds.. Out of site.. I guess out of mind.. American Soldier for me at least was a huge “Realization” of how great we have it.. and as a Mom, A Wife, I can’t imagine the pain of wanting my husband.. my soul mate home.. and knowing how he is in harm’s way every minute he is gone.. I will never be the same.. Not after watching this movie.. I will be Better..

Hale and Hearty Words

You might have clicked on this post expecting to find some anti-American, leftist liberal rant on the military and how America is a bully, based on the title I posted. But you’re not going to find that here. Ever.

And it’s pretty rare for me to post a movie review, and this isn’t really that, either.

But I did almost walk out of this movie. Twice, actually.

But before we get to that, let me tell you the reasons why I think you (and everyone else) should see this movie. In the process of doing that, I think I can better explain why I almost walked out.

You need to see this movie because, as everyone who sees it will agree, Chris Kyle (the American Navy SEAL & sniper whom the movie depicts) did some amazing stuff for America.

Hero? Yes. Expert skills? Definitely. And the fact that he survived…

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Pulled, Tugged and Frustrated..

My morning started out with a Negative call from an asset manager.. Yes I turned the call around.. Change the asset managers mind to cancel on a buyer but hanging up the phone, I felt Anxious.. I felt stressed.. I made a lot of promises on that call, in which I have to count on someone else doing there job..

I have a Regular JOB offer on the Table.. Benefits.. Retirement.. Yes someone will own me as we say when we are self employed.. I have to think.. Can I punch a time clock.. I never have been good at that task.. Never, not in all my years..

Then I have my Networking business which brings me the most amount of joy.. Somedays.. especially tough days like today I wonder if that is the right path.. I guess being pulled in so many directions can take a toll on anyone.. I literally bowed my head and asked the Lord to give me guidance and direction. Something..

And then the strangest thing happened, I opened my Itunes account to add some videos for tonight’s presentation and this video was in the Folder.. I have never watched it and I honestly don’t ever remember seeing it or downloading it.. yeah I know I must have.. But it was right there staring me in the face so I clicked play.. Crazy thing too about this video is the thumbnail was just white.. As I sat and watched in a sense of calm came over me and I took that as yet another sign that I need to concentrate and stay on the path with the People of FGXpress.. With them is when life makes sense.. With them I have never felt judge, Never been insulted.. With them I have never been let down.. So I want to share with you this video.. not as a way to sale anyone.. Just as a way to share that sometimes we may not have all the answers as to why things happen the way they happen.. but it is the little things if you open your eyes to them that will keep you going in the right direction.. Oh and also.. Knowing the Lord has your back.

Inspirational Words written by a 13 year old before she passes away from cancer.

Read the story here here.

Happy Memorial Day..

Today wraps up yet another amazing family fun weekend. Spending it at our most favorite place, Pismo Beach. It’s also Memorial Day. A day to reflect on all that is sacrificed and all those we have loved and lost.

I am so thankful that I am surrounded by positive people every day. My heart is full if gratitude and appreciation. I pray that everyone out there can experience this feeling. It can’t be bought. I do know to get there as Joel Osteen said “God has already lined up the right people for you, people that will inspire you, challenge you and motivate you. If you’ll let go of the wrong people, then the right people will show up.” This is so true. If you want this feeling of an abundance amount of support and love you must allow those people in and release those that create any other feeling.

I hope everyone has an amazing Memorial Day.

Something To Think About…

Wow… This is a great article and definitely worth the Read..

Your Logo Done Here

It took me a couple of weeks to write this post, because I wanted to make sure that I got it right. I had to let it marinate for a minute. After a particularly grueling day, personally, a couple of weeks ago, I came in to the shop to find this note laying on the floor. It had been pushed through the mail slot by someone who was obviously #tickedoff at me for not being here.

At first I got pretty mad and wanted to scream at the faceless, genderless, writer of the note that wouldn’t they really like to know where I was? In the next moment I realized that it was not their fault, and that I “got it.” That person might have driven from way on the other side of Gurnee or Zion to get here, and they had no clue why I wasn’t here…they just knew…

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Heartfelt compliments..

I was blessed with the most uplifting last few days.. I have so much to write about.. But I want to start by telling you about something that was completely unrelated to my trip that happened yesterday.. As I was in the Airport at one of the tall plug-in Outlet locations letting my phone charge and answering some emails on my laptop a “young couple” walked by and as they did I hear their conversation.. It was crowded and they got stopped right in my area as people came out of a Gate unloading passengers.. The words were surprising.. She states to him.. “You know you are the most amazing Husband and Father a girl could ask for.. She continued and said. I appreciate you on so many levels and my life would never be as good as it is right now if I ever had to live it without you..” I have to admit I was shocked and then moved all at once.. They were struggling with bags, rushing to a flight.. in an airport and she took the time to express her love and gratitude.. and to me they were still babies.. Probably upper 20″s.. It made me sit there and think.. and that made me feels kind of sad.. Why? because  it has become normal to hear people arguing when they walked by? It is sad to think that the latter is what is the norm today.. We have no problem showing our frustrations, but seem to have a problem showing our love and appreciation in public.. where public eyes and ears can see and hear them.. If we could only turn that around and make it the normal thing we see and hear.. think about how just a few words could absolutely change ones day.. Try saying something positive to those around you.. not in private.. IN PUBLIC.. Where everyone can see and hear you.. That is my challenge for this next month.. and I challenge all of you to do the same..

Seahawks .. To me they are not just a team..

I remember when the Seahawks launched the Franchise in 1976.. All the excitement.. I was 11.. I was living in Port Angeles Washington which is just across the Bay from Seattle.. Until the late 20’s I lived in the State of Washington and grew up a Seahawks fan.. At 18 is when it changed to rarely missing a game with friends.. Dave Kreig was the Quarterback at the time..  Life goes on and I met my Husband, who is a Raider fan.. He swore he would convert me.. at 28 We moved back to his hometown in Northern California and he was even more convinced he would sway my passion to the Oakland Raiders.. Not a chance..

It all became more than a sport when the Seahawks made it to the Superbowl Feb. 5, 2006.. Of course I was planning a Superbowl party and the morning was very busy.. Now for anyone to understand the magnitude of what I will be explaining next I need to first tell you, I had never met personally my birth father.. I knew who he was and for 10 years (yes, I will live with this regret my whole life, that is, that it was never made a priority to get together personally.. We both kept saying next year.. never thinking that next year would never come) but we talked on the phone and shared emails pretty regularly.. The morning of Superbowl XL my dad called to say he was rooting for my team.. not a big football fan himself but he knew how much I loved my Seahawks and he called to wish me well. To say he loved me and that he was Routing for my Hawks.. I was busy and we talked but I told him I had a few more things to do to get ready for guests and we said goodbye.. We got to Exchange “I love You’s” that one last time.  My dad went for a walk with his dogs just after the call and when he didn’t return they went looking for him and found him on the sidewalk.. He had a massive heart attack.. He had passed away.. The phone rang just as guests were arriving and I looked at the caller id and remember thinking as I answered it ” you know I am busy ” but it wasn’t him.. it was my Aunt to tell me what had happened and that he was gone. I was standing in the kitchen and I hit the floor.. He was gone..

My husband took over from there and as people arrived he explained what happened as I stayed in my room the remainder of the day.. I didn’t even watch the game.. In fact in an attempt to not go through the pain I guess I stopped watching them play all together. It was a reminder of what was lost.. the regret for putting off something so important that I can never get back.. it was just easier not to watch.

A few years ago, something finally hit me.. Rather then looking at the glass half empty, I needed to be thankful for what I did have and that the Seahawks gave that to me.. That one last phone call with my DAD.. You see that phone call wouldn’t have happened with out that Super Bowl appearance that day.. and Do I believe that God played a part in that phone call.. absolutely..

For all the people out their, Niner fans, Bronco Fans, Sherman haters.. whoever you are that like to harass and put down people with a passion.. Look deeper.. you might just see that for some it is more than just a game.. it is more than who is going to be the winner. Getting their, both teams are winners.. and just because they are their, what ever teams they are..lives change and hopefully they change for the better.. Glass half full.. never half empty..

Go Hawks.. I will forever be thankful for what this team gave me that one Superbowl Sunday.. 8 years ago.. RIP James Dale Agan 7/12/43 ~ 2/5/2006